I will always be outdone and underappreciated. Sometimes I want to get in your face and scream until I'm blue, but all you'd hear is the disgruntled murmurings of an unpretty girl.

Dear Portland –

Grow up.

kthxbi.

Bucky likes Blackberry Brandy straight out of the bottle. I have an alcoholic gay kitten. Most excellent.

I am all kinds of bored. Someone, please, go stand out in front of my apartment, pour gasoline on yourself and light yourself on fire, just so I can watch. The crazy guy stopped shouting, the people upstairs stopped having sex, and I'm sitting here in 394820 layers of clothing, doing laundry, eating cinnamon & sugar popcorn and powdered hot chocolate, yelling at the cats and looking at random kittens on Catster.

My god what have I become?!

I had a really horrible dream. I wonder if it was trying to tell me something. A lot of people I knew died, at least, they were going to die, but I had to cope with the fact that they were going to die, and there was nothing I could do about it besides watch in horror. At least they didn't. Anyway. It makes me all clingy in the morning and all I do is hug Kevin and go "Thank god you're not dead!" and have flashbacks of exploding things and radiation poisoning and melting flesh.

Yesterday, Nessa & Sonyo came over to bask in our heated apartment to sew things, watch bad movies, and eat tacos. Today, we go to Uwajimaya! Hooray!

( hi-octane orange )

The thing that gets me on the first page of the quiz is that is says "... I take solace from the fact that Germany was split in half, never to be reunited again." So what happened to November 9, 1989? The fall of the Berlin Wall? Reunification of Germany? Unless he's talking culturally. There is stil a divide between E. and W. Germany, but mostly over economics, because W. Germany had to soak up the debt that E. Germany incurred during the years of the split, making Germany as a whole country millions of dollars/marks/euros in debt, and W. Germans felt insulted that they had to help pay for the indescretions of the government of the E. Germans, and E. Germany is still pretty poor. And so on. Blah. But it is still all one big Germany, unless something has happened in the past week that I didn't know about. I guess this guy was so bent on writing his quiz he forgot a basic history lesson. Oh well. Now I have to take this stupid quiz to see if there are any more historical errors. I hate my life. Or mom. Both. For making me such a history nerd.

Man I am a loser I thought today was Wednesday, and it is Friday. I'm retardelicious!

O hay wut is goieng on 4 teh weekend y'all? srsly.

My throat feels like ass, I can't sleep and it's cold. But goddamn I have a sewing machine! Today, I intend to make stuff.

Kevin totally got me a sewing machine today, and I've already broken it twice! Thank god they're pretty simple to fix. Woo! I'm making a ninja-bot! I think he will go for $10.

"It probably the most amazing thing EVER. Like I thought hard about it, and I couldn't come up with one single thing that was more amazing, besides it's creator possibly." - the girl who got my cloudbot as a gift today

On another note, I need more polyfil for stuffing robots, a sewing machine, and lots of weird awesome cloth, and crap to glue onto more robots. And animals. And more chunky beads. But a job above all. And more canvas for painting. And more paints and brushes! And a keyboard that plugs into a computer. And a new Powerbook. Thank god echs-mas is coming! Too bad I'm not getting anything for echs-mas from my parents. Damn the man!

Also 13&God is hella good. As is Regina Spektor. And Mirah. And Notwist. Yeah!

Bucky is one accident away from being kicked to the curb. I am sick of his 3AM-9AM antics, eating my plants, breaking things, and being a general asshole. He wasn't even ours to begin with! I'm pretty sure he can live with Mucus now. He toughens up quick.

I got new glasses, hooray!